by Razzi Lentz, founder SBP
Dear Garden Oracle:
I had an abortion 5 months ago and have been overcome with sadness ever since. It is affecting my work, my relationships.... I truly think if we had had more courage we could have loved and welcomed the child into our family. How can I learn to forgive myself and move on from this experience? My husband and I have since decided we are ready for another child. Is my sadness preventing me from conceiving? Has this spirit moved on or are they open to joining our family again?
Thank you for your email. I understand and empathize with the heart break associated with your situation.
There is no need for guilt here, you did what was right for the situation at home, without question. Neither of you was really ready for a child at that point.
It was not so much a matter of courage, but the realization that you were both clearly not in the place where you felt bringing a child into your home was the best timing.
Be at peace with the decision that you made, for you took the correct path at that time.
This child paved the way for you to be ready for pregnancy and for both of you to be "all in."
The stress and sadness are weighing you down, yes, and making it harder for you to conceive, but I do see this lifting Dear Heart. There is another beautiful soul waiting to be born to you and your husband, The soul of that child has already moved on, but their purpose was to open you to wanting to be parents!
I do see that the next best window to conceive is October 2017, I see that you will have at least 2 healthy and happy babies, and that your pregnancies will be healthy and happy as well. I do see that you and your husband will savor every moment of the process and provide a good and loving home.
You can forgive yourself, for the unborn child did move forward and is at peace themselves. The message I am getting for you is to let go and get ready for the child coming into your life in 2018, whom will fill that place of sadness to overflowing. Your home will be filled with joy rather than regret.
Healing is already around you Dear Heart. Please know that your Angels are with you, all you have to do is to say, "I release this sadness to you, and accept the healing being offered."
Blessings to you, MM, I have added you to my prayer list so healing is sent to you twice a day.
In Divine Love,
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